A Boobtastic Journey!!!!

Went to the doctors on Thursday, just another one of those “show me dem boobies, okay looks good see ya” ordeals. Everything is great & I can start using Mederma on them to start making the scars go away. The scars really aren’t that bad. He was going to give me a medical thing that make the scars heal faster, but it’s like $80 for one! I was like that’s INSANE! I’ll just use Mederma, no one sees my boobs beside me & my mom lol. I don’t have to go back for another month & hopefully that will be the last visit for the rest of my life! Ira Krafchin is a FANTASTIC doctor. He’s taken such great care of me during all of this. Any questions i’ve had, either at his office or at home he’s had no problems in answering.

Mom just got a statement from the insurance company in the mail. Just for the anesthesia it cost $2375!!!!!! Just for me to be put under! Luckily we have AMAZING health insurance & my mom only has to pay $1O4. Curious to see how much everything else cost!

Weight hasn’t done anything because we’ve had nothing but rain these past few weeks so I haven’t been able to walk or anything so that sucks! Other than that, everything is going great! Need to get a few new bras, the one I bought have been bugging me & are falling down. Probably going to take a trip to good old Cacique or Victoria Secret & pick me up some real beauties! Whoop! Excited.

Love you guys!
Until next time,
Xoxo Burr.

Check that out!
Wicked awesome booby bruise huh?!
Forgot to post that when I first got home.
When I got home & actually got to look at them I was like “mom, what happened here? Was my surgery not going as planned & my doctor just punched me in the boob?!” It was gnarly & huge (that’s what she said).

Any who, nothing much has changed. Going back to Dr. Krafchin Thursday. Haven’t seen him in two weeks. Boobs are fine. Actually feeling like boobs rather than feeling like I have rocks in my chest, but my right boob seems to be hanging a little lower which sucks because it WAS normal. I don’t know what’s happening. Bringing that up on Thursday. Other than that, everything is good. I’m all peed (the glue) I hardly have any pain anymore. I’m back to sleeping on my sides hahaha & I can finally reach above my head. Everything’s going great.

Looking back, this was an amazing journey which is still continuing. Totally worth it in the long run.

I’m all healed!
PARTYYYYYYYYY!!!


Well… for the most part.
I’m done peeling so all the gross, gluey, bloody stuff is gone. I kind of look like I have normal boobies this time around so that’s exciting! Instead of going to the doctors every week which seems what my one day a week life has become is no longer existent either. Well…he doesn’t want to see me until next next week he still claims that I have a bit of a rash still but it’s not bothering me at all anymore he just wants to make sure I’m good. Also because it will be exactly one month that the procedure was done & he just wants to make sure I’m healing the proper way (which from what i’ve seen I have been).

FUNNY STORY!
We took Nathan with us when we went to the doctors the last time & hes 2, he knows what boobies are & of course he’s seen mine, we went into the exam room & i had to put those weird paper vest thing on & so I did. He kept looking at it because he didn’t know what it was but I digress. My doctor came in & I of course opened the vest so he could see. He was talking for maybe a minute when all of a sudden Nathan looks at my doctor, points & goes “Um… Beri’s boobies…” we all died. We weren’t expecting that. My mom face palmed.


EXCITING NEWS (or so I think)!
My mom & I went shopping because she told me she wanted to get me some new tank tops/shirts because my shirts & everything were stretched out from my boobs before. So we went all over the place the entire week we went to Walmart where I found 5 really really really cute tank tops but I hate the way they look on because my body is still in really crappy shape. Target where I got nothing because my mom thought it would be a great idea to go to a store that doesn’t close first rather than the store that closed within a hour. Old Navy where I got a v-neck shirt & three tank tops which I love (also top pairs of flip flops but I don’t wear those on my boobs). Jc Penny’s where I got an AMAZING cardigan that was eight dollars marked down from forty. Lastly I went to TJ Maxx & found this totally amazing adorable dress that I was so pumped to put on & see that it fit. I’ve always wanted a cute summer dress but was never able to because my boobs were always like “oh you like this dress? well guess what burr, WE’RE TOO BIG! NO DRESS FOR YOU!” gah. I love it. Totally stoked.

EVEN MORE EXCITING NEWS!
I have boob picture updates
NO NUDES YA CREEPERS!

Front.


Side.


4OH cup.


4OC cup.


both bras. (I could hardly hold them up together!!!)

Yeah so that’s that!
Totally exciting no?


I honestly feel so much better. My back is still out of whack but that’s because its had to carry around 10lbs just on my chest. Also because my posture was/is horrible. Every time I catch myself slouching I sit/stand up straight. I’m also going to start a diet & exercise plan this week (more diet than exercise other than walking as of right now because I’m still healing). I HAVE TO start doing this & losing weight. I don’t have an excuse anymore other than that I’m just being lazy. Before I did because my boobs held me back from doing a lot because of all the pain I would get. Walking doesn’t really help THAT much. I plan to start going to a gym hopefully soon. I just need to figure out how I am going to get the money for it but I digress. I need to start getting serious about it & stop being so lazy & saying tomorrow.

XOXO burr<3

I keep failing at updating this thing!
I don’t know what’s wrong with me.

Updates;
Suffered from a rash for about two weeks, it finally JUST went away. Holy itch factor, that was pretty bad. The moment my doctor walked in he knew it was a rash. Which is a good thing because I thought it was an infection so that was a relief. Still itchy but that’s because I am finally healing & the glue is peeling. Still sore in some spots (like by my armpits when I put my arms down) is kind of sore still. Actually got to wear the bra’s my mom got me before my surgery & went into the pool with Nathan(my nephew) yesterday & my mom today actually got to wear a bathing suit top it was still a little small around the stomach area, but I’m working on that. My mom came in when I was changing out of my suit & said “See, this is how skinny you would be” pointing out that my waist is smaller than my stomach. That kind of made me feel pretty bad, but I knew/know she doesn’t mean it to be rude. She knows I’ve struggled & still am struggling with my weight. Like I said, I’m working on it. It’s just another one of those mountains you have to slowly climb up to achieve reaching the top.

Day 1 Friday May 28, 2011: thanks everyone whos been asking about me & who has been wishing me well. I’m doing fine I’m just all blah & everything from the meds. Finding it hard to actually be up without getting dizzy & feeling sick. I’m also still a little sore so typing this is a little tough. I’m hoping in the next few days ill be able to update you guys a little further<3


Day 2 Saturday May 29, 2011:
I failed to mention yesterday I got my drains out, one word: OUCH! That is one thing I never want to feel again, gross. Today I actually got UP. Got to take a shower but needless to say that was kind of a fail. Ended up getting really lightheaded & getting sick… mid shower. Probably because I’m still a little loopy from the anesthesia & because that’s the most I have been up since I’ve been home. I also keep getting really really bad headaches, a side effect from my anti nausea meds & I’m guessing also from the Percocet. Luckily my mom helped me out in the shower & everything like that. Just sucks that I’m still getting sick & lightheaded but I was under for four hours so that helps explain everything. Not so much in pain anymore as I am itchy! Shockingly I’m not really that bruised. I’m still walking & standing a little funny because of the drain sites being a little sore & everything like that. Right now I’m getting a headache so I’m outta here! Hoping for more progress tomorrow!

XOXO

NEVER in my teenage life with these things attached to me permanently did I think that those words would be coming out of my mouth. I can’t even express fully how I am feelings. A few feelings though: nervous, anxious, scared, & excited. My mom & I are staying the night at the hospital, simply because it will make me feel better. Just to know if I am in any pain, I can just buzz the nurses & they can give me what I need. I just can’t believe tomorrow is the big day. Holy crap.

Dear Berilyn’s Boobies,

I am happy that you girls are getting nipped and tucked, because I’m pretty sure you’re going to be WAY happier afterwards. But, I am telling you girlies that you HAVE got to be all healed by the end of August! Why? Is that what you asked? Oh, well, because I have to meet your momma! She has to go to that Panic! concert and have fun! Then we have to have a slumber party at my house! So, please boobies, please be healed by then.

Love y’all,
Kristina

OUR RESPONSE;

Dear Kristina,
Thank you for your kinds words, we are also glad we are getting nipped & tucked. We are hoping that she will be all healed & ready to go (see what we did there?) for the panic! show in September & so you two can finally meet & have a slumber party in the Asian Ghetto ;)

Love Berilyn’s Boobies.


PS; We are the two weirdest people on tumblr writing to my boobs & writing a response FROM my boobs. LAAAAAV YOU!


Told you I have a great support system.

So, I’ve tried many many times to make a video doing all of this, but lets just say its been a multiple accounts of failure I got nothing!

Alright let’s do this.

Yello, My Name is Berilyn, I am 20 years old & live in Pennsylvania. On May 25th, 2011 ( just 1 day shy of 2 weeks) I am getting a breast reduction. Now before you start saying “well she must really hate the way she looks & she must only be doing this for cosmetic reasons” let me just stop you there & tell you about my current situation. I am currently a size 4O H. That’s right a 4O H. When I first started getting boobs, I had NO idea that was a size. I still can’t believe it. I get sized from Lane Bryant so I know that is correct. Having 4O H sized breasts causes me to have horrible posture, I get TERRIBLE back pains, & it truly causes problems to work out. I guess you could say I’m over weight, but I diet all the time & nothing happens because the only working out I am able to do is walking & you can’t really do much walking. I don’t know maybe I could, but the back pains doesn’t help that situation.

Now back to me hating what I look like, I don’t that way. I don’t only want to get this done because it will change the way I look like. I want to be healthier, & I know this will totally help me. I’ve always felt out of place because my brother & my sister were always skinny & i wasn’t. I didn’t feel right looking the way I did, but I never thought I would be saying I was getting a breast reduction, so I just accepted it. I still feel that way to this day. If I was meant to look like my brother & my sister, I would have. I wasn’t though, I was meant to look this way & I’m fine with that. I’m just so excited that I have been accepted for a breast reduction because my confidence is going to go through the roof. It’s going to feel amazing going out & not getting stared at or whispered about or getting asked if my boobs are fake or real, honestly though, who in their right mind would want boobs this big besides porn stars which trust me, i don’t  aspire to be in this lifetime. It’s also going to be great to not have to worry about “oh god is this shirt going to fit me?” or have to worry about having to buy a $42.OO+ white black or beige colored bra. I’ll be able to walk into Victoria’s Secret & actually buy a bra! Ill be able to have a bra that actually has a cute pattern or a cute color. I’m bra shopping as we speak haha.

Luckily, I have an awesome support system consisting of my family most importantly, the few friends I have, & the tumblr community! My followers have been so encouraging & sending me best wishes & I’m so thankful for them, they are amazing people! I have family members in New York who are hopefully coming down to see me & to help out. My dad is going to come down for my surgery, & my grandmother wants to come down for the afterward. I’m hoping that my parents can be adults & not fight they day because they have a horrible past & my mom doesn’t want my father to even come down, but the way  I see that, it’s not really her choice, it’s mine. She’s just going to have to suck it up & deal with it.

Am I completely stoked about this operation? Hell yes, but I’m really nervous too. The only other surgeries I have had were for my ankle & that was over 11 years ago. I know I am going to be fine, but I don’t do well with pain & I hate being uncomfortable, but I’m like if I have to be uncomfortable for a few weeks to have my life expirence be way better than it has been, let’s do this shit. I just wasn’t expecting this to happen so quickly, IF at all. It’s really a dream come true I just have a slight case of the hee-bee-jee-bee’s but my doctor is great & I know I’m in good hands.

I plan to keep updating this, more so AFTER the surgery because nothing has really happened other than doctors appointments & it’s the same thing over & over again: No aspirin products now until the surgery, be at the hospital for 83Oam, should start at 1O3O (not set in stone), surgery is normally 3 hours, majority of patients go home the same day it all depends & yada, yada, yada. So if this was interesting enough, come on back & see how everything goes!

XOXO Berilyn.